I watch him as the days, months and years go by.
He works so hard at everything he tries
Meeting failure at every turn.
Pushing, trying, letting go—
No matter what he does
It seems failure is in his wake
And that his fruit is tears.
How much more of this can he take?
It’s a man’s job to provide for his family.
But when all his trying fails, what then?
Will there come a morning when he just can’t get up again?
Each failure brings him low.
Each more devastating than the last.
He rises each time a little slower,
His confidence taking a beating blast.
God! Will you show him the way?
Show him how to fight and win!
Show him there’s a better day
That’s surely coming to him!
I cannot watch him fall
And see him struggling so to rise.
It breaks my heart to see him so
And brings tears to my eyes.
Please, God! Bless him!
Please, turn all this humiliation at his hand
Into something far better—
Yea, even his promised land!
His eyes downcast,
He barely dares
To look me in the eye.
And when he does
His pain and shame
Make him want to dash and fly.
Away from me he wants to go
Where he can face his pain and shame
I cannot help him, God.
I don’t know how.
Please help him,
I know you understand!
I love him.
I want him.
I’m trying hard to wait.
How much will this life break him?
How much more can he take?
Sometimes my fears and worries
Spread like wild fire in my mind.
How far must he be broken
Before healing he can find?
His heart is good, intentions too.
He’s trying so hard for you!
Reputation lost, loved ones scattered.
Do you see? Does it matter?
Sometimes he fears
A cruel joke’s been played
By deity on him.
Or a deal between God and Devil—
How much more, God,
Before he proves faithful,
Enough that you may bless him?
Can he hang on that long?
I hope and pray that he will still be a man
When this is all said and done.
~Thoughts From A Mother’s Heart